thoughts while missing you...

I closed my eyes and picture you right next to me, i can see you clearly like its real and meant to be. With those so soft lips that brings life to my fire, your so strong grasp that i always desire. I feel wanted, I feel that distinct warm, as i look at those dazzling clear brown eyes. I look at you with such a calm and sweet simple smile on your face, with it i know that memories with you cannot be erased. As our bodies collide and feel you next to me, i give in deeply cause that's what i want it to be. I look at you again, holding your face with both of my hands. saying things that i never expected myself to say before. You look at me with such appreciation, and i gave in with such admiration. I wanted you to be happy and that's all i want and that's how i love you so. i loved you and will always do, for you and not for myself. i know these moments will only be there as my eyes remain closed. i wish you all the best in life, and if you ever need my help, you know where to find me. I will always be there for you and i will be in a heartbeat. these thoughts will remain, and it'll take time and only God knows when I'll be able to be free from these chains. but I'll deal with it, cause all i need to do is to close my eyes to see you clearly, smiling with those dazzling clear brown eyes. it gives me strength, keeps me moving. though every time i open my eyes tears follow through, because all i ever wanted is to really be with you.